The Drink and Two Lovers

It's so sad,
To see you falling,
With all you're doing,
You'll soon be crawling,
You can't keep going,
How you are at the moment,
I can't bear to watch it,
It's twisted, bent,
It hurts me to see,
You hurting yourself,
But I can't find the words to stop you,
Within myself,
You can't see the pain you cause,
To yourself and others,
You have to stop this,
The drink and two lovers.

Crushing Pain

I'm finding it hard to bear,
This crushing pain,
I see my life wither,
As I walk through the rain,
Right before my face,
My world is falling down,
Tears build in my eyes,
As all seems to hit the ground,
I can't find the strength to care,
About anything but him,
Without him life is pointless,
All but him is dim,
Everything is black and white,
And I'm so sick of it,
He's the only colour,
He's oh so brightly lit,
I love him with all my heart,
I need him to light the way,
But he's just out of reach,
And it hurts more than I can say,
I want to be with him dearly,
But I know only too well,
That I cannot touch him,
So I live my life in hell,
I long for him to love me,
But that's just a dream,
I want this feeling to die,
But it's so extreme.

This Hurts

He has my heart,
But doesn't know it,
I love him so,
But I can't show it,
He's the one,
I want to be with,
The one for who,
My life, I'd give,
Always on my mind,
And it hurts so much,
Oh how I long,
To feel his touch,
But I can't have him,
I know that well,
This love's unreturned,
This life is hell.

Beat Me To It

I was going to dump you,
But you beat me to it,
You greasy haired bitch,
It didn't hurt one bit,
I'm glad it's over,
But it doesn't feel closed,
We still need to talk,
Clear up things imposed,
I have things I need to say,
For your own good,
I hope you listen,
You know you should,
I hope you explain,
Why you did it all,
Thought I was stupid,
Thought I'd be your fool,
Now we have spoken,
Everything's done,
You didn't listen,
But still, have fun,
I don't think you'll do,
All that well in life,
But you've got friends,
Or a knife,
I hate you for not saying,
Why you did that to me,
But otherwise I'm still here,
If you need me to be,
Ever caring,
Because you were sweet,
Hoping the current wanker,
Might soon retreat,
I know I should forget you,
And just move along,
But you'll be around,
So I guess there's nothing wrong,
With staying friends,
And hanging out,
So I'll say goodbye,
But see you about.

With or Without You

I've lost you,
I've lost everything,
Lost my will to live,
And the ability to give,
Lost my appetite,
And the strength to fight,
Lost the power to be strong,
And the courage to live on,
Lost the need for you,
And all the things you used to do,
I can make it on my own,
I will make it all alone.

Dying Without You

Countless apologies,
Because I went wrong,
Sitting here crying,
And playing this song,
If you go,
I'll miss you dearly,
Without you around,
It's hard to see clearly,
Hard to see,
Through my tears,
Made of memories,
Of this past year,
I value you,
Oh so much,
Life is better,
With your finishing touch,
And if I've lost that,
I'll just keep crying,
Because without you around,
I am dying.

With Some Help

I am failing,
I did it again,
I have to stop,
I can, but don't know when,
It best be soon,
As it's adding together,
It's getting worse,
Stopping is now or never,
I'm going to do this,
I'm going to pull through,
But not alone,
I need help from you.

Thank You So Much

I know the mess I'm in,
Is through fault of my own,
Even though,
I had been shown,
How to avoid it,
And never give in,
But I ignored him,
And continued with my guilty sin,
He found out,
And he got angry,
But still continued,
Trying to make me see,
He persuaded me to stop,
And I can't thank him enough,
For helping me through,
So many times so tough.

Silly Things

Looked upon,
In a sad way,
For silly things,
I'd like not to say,
Disapproving looks,
Are thrown at me,
But my life's not easy,
And that they can't see,
They don't realise,
The help it is,
For me to do,
Silly things like this.

Screw Up

Here I am,
The person I hate,
I realise this now,
But it might be too late,
I think I can correct this,
All of the damage I've done,
Get everything back together,
All that's come undone,
But right now,
I'm not happy being me,
Because what I've become,
Is not what I want to be,
Time to reverse the process,
Go back to who I was before,
Get my life back on track,
Before I screw up more.

Questions

There're all these questions,
Swimming in my mind,
Where's life going,
What've I left behind,
Some answers are there,
Fairly easy to see,
Others are a blur,
What could they be,
I have no idea,
Does anyone at all,
Who has the answers,
Who should I call,
There're all these people,
With good and bad advice,
Some are useless,
Even if they're being nice,
Such stupidity,
Even though they mean well,
At least they aren't those,
Condemning me to hell,
But those people are about,
Sometimes getting me down,
I can only try to ignore them,
As they wish me to drown,
Pressing on through the boredom,
The anger and pain,
Wondering if my life,
Will ever be the same,
As it was before,
When I was so happy,
I want those good times back,
I want to be me.